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Winesburg, Ohio, by Sherwood Anderson Godliness: A
Tale in Four Parts IV: Terror,
Concerning David Hardy WHEN
DAVID HARDY was a tall boy of fifteen, he, like his mother, had an
adventure that changed the whole current of his life and sent him out of
his quiet corner into the world. The
shell of the circumstances of his life was broken and he was compelled to
start forth. He left
Winesburg and no one there ever saw him again.
After his disappearance, his mother and grandfather both died and
his father became very rich. He
spent much money in trying to locate his son, but that is no part of this
story.
It
was in the late fall of an unusual year on the Bentley farms.
Everywhere the crops had been heavy.
That spring, Jesse had bought part of a long strip of black swamp
land that lay in the valley of Wine Creek.
He got the land at a low price but had spent a large sum of money
to improve it. Great ditches
had to be dug and thousands of tile laid. Neighboring farmers shook their
heads over the expense. Some
of them laughed and hoped that Jesse would lose heavily by the venture,
but the old man went silently on with the work and said nothing. When
the land was drained he planted it to cabbages and onions, and again the
neighbors laughed. The crop was, however, enormous and brought high
prices. In the one year Jesse
made enough money to pay for all the cost of preparing the land and had a
surplus that enabled him to buy two more farms. He was exultant and could
not conceal his delight. For the first time in all the history of his
ownership of the farms, he went among his men with a smiling face. Jesse
bought a great many new machines for cutting down the cost of labor and
all of the remaining acres in the strip of black fertile swamp land.
One day he went into Winesburg and bought a bicycle and a new suit
of clothes for David and he gave his two sisters money with which to go to
a religious convention at Cleveland, Ohio. In
the fall of that year when the frost came and the trees in the forests
along Wine Creek were golden brown, David spent every moment when he did
not have to attend school, out in the open. Alone or with other boys he
went every afternoon into the woods to gather nuts.
The other boys of the countryside, most of them sons of laborers on
the Bentley farms, had guns with which they went hunting rabbits and
squirrels, but David did not go with them.
He made himself a sling with rubber bands and a forked stick and
went off by himself to gather nuts. As
he went about thoughts came to him. He
realized that he was almost a man and wondered what he would do in life,
but before they came to anything, the thoughts passed and he was a boy
again. One day he killed a squirrel that sat on one of the lower
branches of a tree and chattered at him.
Home he ran with the squirrel in his hand. One of the Bentley
sisters cooked the little animal and he ate it with great gusto.
The skin he tacked on a board and suspended the board by a string
from his bedroom window. That
gave his mind a new turn. After
that he never went into the woods without carrying the sling in his pocket
and he spent hours shooting at imaginary animals concealed among the brown
leaves in the trees. Thoughts
of his coming manhood passed and he was content to be a boy with a boy's
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One
Saturday morning when he was about to set off for the woods with the sling
in his pocket and a bag for nuts on his shoulder, his grandfather stopped
him. In the eyes of the old man
was the strained serious look that always a little frightened David.
At such times Jesse Bentley's eyes did not look straight ahead but
wavered and seemed to be looking at nothing.
Something like an invisible curtain appeared to have come between the
man and all the rest of the world. "I
want you to come with me," he said briefly, and his eyes looked over
the boy's head into the sky. "We
have something important to do today. You
may bring the bag for nuts if you wish.
It does not matter and anyway we will be going into the woods." Jesse
and David set out from the Bentley farmhouse in the old phaeton that was
drawn by the white horse. When
they had gone along in silence for a long way they stopped at the edge of a
field where a flock of sheep were grazing.
Among the sheep was a lamb that had been born out of season, and this
David and his grandfather caught and tied so tightly that it looked like a
little white ball. When they
drove on again Jesse let David hold the lamb in his arms.
"I saw it yesterday and it put me in mind of what I have long
wanted to do," he said, and again he looked away over the head of the
boy with the wavering, uncertain stare in his eyes. After
the feeling of exaltation that had come to the farmer as a result of his
successful year, another mood had taken possession of him.
For a long time he had been going about feeling very humble and
prayerful. Again he walked
alone at night thinking of God and as he walked he again connected his own
figure with the figures of old days. Under
the stars he knelt on the wet grass and raised up his voice in prayer.
Now he had decided that like the men whose stories filled the pages
of the Bible, he would make a sacrifice to God.
"I have been given these abundant crops and God has also sent me
a boy who is called David," he whispered to himself. "Perhaps I
should have done this thing long ago." He was sorry the idea had not
come into his mind in the days before his daughter Louise had been born and
thought that surely now when he had erected a pile of burning sticks in some
lonely place in the woods and had offered the body of a lamb as a burnt
offering, God would appear to him and give him a message. More
and more as he thought of the matter, he thought also of David and his
passionate self-love was partially forgotten.
"It is time for the boy to begin thinking of going out into the
world and the message will be one concerning him," he decided.
"God will make a pathway for him.
He will tell me what place David is to take in life and when he shall
set out on his journey. It is
right that the boy should be there. If
I am fortunate and an angel of God should appear, David will see the beauty
and glory of God made manifest to man.
It will make a true man of God of him also." In
silence Jesse and David drove along the road until they came to that place
where Jesse had once before appealed to God and had frightened his grandson.
The morning had been bright and cheerful, but a cold wind now began
to blow and clouds hid the sun. When
David saw the place to which they had come he began to tremble with fright,
and when they stopped by the bridge where the creek came down from among the
trees, he wanted to spring out of the phaeton and run away. A
dozen plans for escape ran through David's head, but when Jesse stopped the
horse and climbed over the fence into the wood, he followed. "It is foolish to be afraid. Nothing will happen," he told himself as he went along
with the lamb in his arms. There was something in the helplessness of the
little animal held so tightly in his arms that gave him courage.
He could feel the rapid beating of the beast's heart and that made
his own heart beat less rapidly. As
he walked swiftly along behind his grandfather, he untied the string with
which the four legs of the lamb were fastened together.
"If anything happens we will run away together," he
thought. In
the woods, after they had gone a long way from the road, Jesse stopped in an
opening among the trees where a clearing, overgrown with small bushes, ran
up from the creek. He was still
silent but began at once to erect a heap of dry sticks which he presently
set afire. The boy sat on the
ground with the lamb in his arms. His
imagination began to invest every movement of the old man with significance
and he became every moment more afraid.
"I must put the blood of the lamb on the head of the boy,"
Jesse muttered when the sticks had begun to blaze greedily, and taking a
long knife from his pocket he turned and walked rapidly across the clearing
toward David. Terror
seized upon the soul of the boy. He
was sick with it. For a moment
he sat perfectly still and then his body stiffened and he sprang to his
feet. His face became as white as the fleece of the lamb that, now finding
itself suddenly released, ran down the hill.
David ran also. Fear
made his feet fly. Over the low
bushes and logs he leaped frantically.
As he ran he put his hand into his pocket and took out the branched
stick from which the sling for shooting squirrels was suspended.
When he came to the creek that was shallow and splashed down over the
stones, he dashed into the water and turned to look back, and when he saw
his grandfather still running toward him with the long knife held tightly in
his hand he did not hesitate, but reaching down, selected a stone and put it
in the sling. With all his
strength he drew back the heavy rubber bands and the stone whistled through
the air. It hit Jesse, who had entirely forgotten the boy and was
pursuing the lamb, squarely in the head.
With a groan he pitched forward and fell almost at the boy's feet.
When David saw that he lay still and that he was apparently dead, his
fright increased immeasurably. It
became an insane panic. With
a cry he turned and ran off through the woods weeping convulsively.
"I don't care--I killed him, but I don't care," he sobbed.
As he ran on and on he decided suddenly that he would never go back
again to the Bentley farms or to the town of Winesburg.
"I have killed the man of God and now I will myself be a man and
go into the world," he said stoutly as he stopped running and walked
rapidly down a road that followed the windings of Wine Creek as it ran
through fields and forests into the west. On
the ground by the creek Jesse Bentley moved uneasily about.
He groaned and opened his eyes. For a long time he lay perfectly
still and looked at the sky. When at last he got to his feet, his mind was confused and he
was not surprised by the boy's disappearance.
By the roadside he sat down on a log and began to talk about God.
That is all they ever got out of him.
Whenever David's name was mentioned he looked vaguely at the sky and
said that a messenger from God had taken the boy.
"It happened because I was too greedy for glory," he
declared, and would have no more to say in the matter.
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