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Amy Foster by Joseph Conrad
Kennedy
is a country doctor, and lives in Colebrook, on the shores of Eastbay.
The high ground rising abruptly behind the red roofs of the little
town crowds the quaint High Street against the wall which defends it from
the sea. Beyond the sea-wall
there curves for miles in a vast and regular sweep the barren beach of
shingle, with the village of Brenzett standing out darkly across the
water, a spire in a clump of trees; and still further out the
perpendicular column of a lighthouse, looking in the distance no bigger
than a lead pencil, marks the vanishing-point of the land.
The country at the back of Brenzett is low and flat, but the bay is
fairly well sheltered from the seas, and occasionally a big ship,
windbound or through stress of weather, makes use of the anchoring ground
a mile and a half due north from you as you stand at the back door of the
"Ship Inn" in Brenzett. A dilapidated windmill near by lifting
its shattered arms from a mound no loftier than a rubbish heap, and a
Martello tower squatting at the water's edge half a mile to the south of
the Coastguard cottages, are familiar to the skippers of small craft.
These are the official seamarks for the patch of trustworthy bottom
represented on the Admiralty charts by an irregular oval of dots enclosing
several figures six, with a tiny anchor engraved among them, and the
legend "mud and shells" over all. The
brow of the upland overtops the square tower of the Colebrook Church.
The slope is green and looped by a white road.
Ascending along this road, you open a valley broad and shallow, a
wide green trough of pastures and hedges merging inland into a vista of
purple tints and flowing lines closing the view. In
this valley down to Brenzett and Colebrook and up to Darnford, the market
town fourteen miles away, lies the practice of my friend Kennedy. He had
begun life as surgeon in the Navy, and afterwards had been the companion
of a famous traveller, in the days when there were continents with
unexplored interiors. His
papers on the fauna and flora made him known to scientific societies.
And now he had come to a country practice --from choice. The penetrating power of his mind, acting like a corrosive
fluid, had destroyed his ambition, I fancy.
His intelligence is of a scientific order, of an investigating
habit, and of that unappeasable curiosity which believes that there is a
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A
good many years ago now, on my return from abroad, he invited me to stay
with him. I came readily
enough, and as he could not neglect his patients to keep me company, he
took me on his rounds--thirty miles or so of an afternoon, sometimes.
I waited for him on the roads; the horse reached after the leafy
twigs, and, sitting in the dogcart, I could hear Kennedy's laugh through
the half-open door left open of some cottage.
He had a big, hearty laugh that would have fitted a man twice his
size, a brisk manner, a bronzed face, and a pair of grey, profoundly
attentive eyes. He had the
talent of making people talk to him freely, and an inexhaustible patience
in listening to their tales. One
day, as we trotted out of a large village into a shady bit of road, I saw
on our left hand a low, black cottage, with diamond panes in the windows,
a creeper on the end wall, a roof of shingle, and some roses climbing on
the rickety trellis-work of the tiny porch.
Kennedy pulled up to a walk. A
woman, in full sunlight, was throwing a dripping blanket over a line
stretched between two old apple-trees.
And as the bobtailed, long-necked chestnut, trying to get his head,
jerked the left hand, covered by a thick dogskin glove, the doctor raised
his voice over the hedge: "How's your child, Amy?" I
had the time to see her dull face, red, not with a mantling blush, but as
if her flat cheeks had been vigorously slapped, and to take in the squat
figure, the scanty, dusty brown hair drawn into a tight knot at the back
of the head. She looked quite
young. With a distinct catch
in her breath, her voice sounded low and timid. "He's
well, thank you." We
trotted again. "A young
patient of yours," I said; and the doctor, flicking the chestnut
absently, muttered, "Her husband used to be." "She
seems a dull creature," I remarked listlessly. "Precisely,"
said Kennedy. "She is
very passive. It's enough to
look at the red hands hanging at the end of those short arms, at those
slow, prominent brown eyes, to know the inertness of her mind --an
inertness that one would think made it everlastingly safe from all the
surprises of imagination. And
yet which of us is safe? At
any rate, such as you see her, she had enough imagination to fall in love.
She's the daughter of one Isaac Foster, who from a small farmer has
sunk into a shepherd; the beginning of his misfortunes dating from his
runaway marriage with the cook of his widowed father--a well-to-do,
apoplectic grazier, who passionately struck his name off his will, and had
been heard to utter threats against his life. But this old affair,
scandalous enough to serve as a motive for a Greek tragedy, arose from the
similarity of their characters. There
are other tragedies, less scandalous and of a subtler poignancy, arising
from irreconcilable differences and from that fear of the Incomprehensible
that hangs over all our heads--over all our heads. . . ." The
tired chestnut dropped into a walk; and the rim of the sun, all red in a
speckless sky, touched familiarly the smooth top of a ploughed rise near
the road as I had seen it times innumerable touch the distant horizon of
the sea. The uniform
brownness of the harrowed field glowed with a rosy tinge, as though the
powdered clods had sweated out in minute pearls of blood the toil of
uncounted ploughmen. From the
edge of a copse a waggon with two horses was rolling gently along the
ridge. Raised above our heads upon the sky-line, it loomed up against the
red sun, triumphantly big, enormous, like a chariot of giants drawn by two
slowstepping steeds of legendary proportions. And
the clumsy figure of the man plodding at the head of the leading horse
projected itself on the background of the Infinite with a heroic
uncouthness. The end of his carter's whip quivered high up in the blue.
Kennedy discoursed. "She's
the eldest of a large family. At
the age of fifteen they put her out to service at the New Barns Farm.
I attended Mrs. Smith, the tenant's wife, and saw that girl there
for the first time. Mrs. Smith, a genteel person with a sharp nose, made
her put on a black dress every afternoon.
I don't know what induced me to notice her at all. There are faces
that call your attention by a curious want of definiteness in their whole
aspect, as, walking in a mist, you peer attentively at a vague shape
which, after all, may be nothing more curious or strange than a signpost.
The only peculiarity I perceived in her was a slight hesitation in
her utterance, a sort of preliminary stammer which passes away with the
first word. When sharply
spoken to, she was apt to lose her head at once; but her heart was of the
kindest. She had never been heard to express a dislike for a single
human being, and she was tender to every living creature. She was devoted to Mrs. Smith, to Mr. Smith, to their dogs,
cats, canaries; and as to Mrs. Smith's grey parrot, its peculiarities
exercised upon her a positive fascination.
Nevertheless, when that outlandish bird, attacked by the cat,
shrieked for help in human accents, she ran out into the yard stopping her
ears, and did not prevent the crime.
For Mrs. Smith this was another evidence of her stupidity; on the
other hand, her want of charm, in view of Smith's well-known
frivolousness, was a great reccommendation.
Her short-sighted eyes would swim with pity for a poor mouse in a
trap, and she had been seen once by some boys on her knees in the wet
grass helping a toad in difficulties.
If it's true, as some German fellow has said, that without
phosphorus there is no thought, it is still more true that there is no
kindness of heart without a certain amount of imagination.
She had some. She had even more than is necessary to understand suffering
and to be moved by pity. She
fell in love under circumstances that leave no room for doubt in the
matter; for you need imagination to form a notion of beauty at all, and
still more to discover your ideal in an unfamiliar shape. "How
this aptitude came to her, what it did feed upon, is an inscrutable
mystery. She was born in the
village, and had never been further away from it than Colebrook or perhaps
Darnford. She lived for four years with the Smiths.
New Barns is an isolated farmhouse a mile away from the road, and
she was content to look day after day at the same fields, hollows, rises;
at the trees and the hedgerows; at the faces of the four men about the
farm, always the same--day after day, month after month, year after year.
She never showed a desire for conversation, and, as it seemed to
me, she did not know how to smile. Sometimes
of a fine Sunday afternoon she would put on her best dress, a pair of
stout boots, a large grey hat trimmed with a black feather (I've seen her
in that finery), seize an absurdly slender parasol, climb over two stiles,
tramp over three fields and along two hundred yards of road--never
further. There stood Foster's
cottage. She would help her
mother to give their tea to the younger children, wash up the crockery,
kiss the little ones, and go back to the farm.
That was all. All the
rest, all the change, all the relaxation.
She never seemed to wish for anything more.
And then she fell in love. She fell in love silently,
obstinately--perhaps helplessly. It
came slowly, but when it came it worked like a powerful spell; it was love
as the Ancients understood it: an irresistible and fateful impulse-a
possession! Yes, it was in
her to become haunted and possessed by a face, by a presence, fatally, as
though she had been a pagan worshipper of form under a joyous sky--and to
be awakened at last from that mysterious forgetfulness of self, from that
enchantment, from that transport, by a fear resembling the unaccountable
terror of a brute. . . ." With
the sun hanging low on its western limit, the expanse of the grass-lands
framed in the counter-scarps of the rising ground took on a gorgeous and
sombre aspect. A sense of
penetrating sadness, like that inspired by a grave strain of music,
disengaged itself from the silence of the fields. The men we met walked
past slow, unsmiling, with downcast eyes, as if the melancholy of an
over-burdened earth had weighted their feet, bowed their shoulders, borne
down their glances. "Yes,"
said the doctor to my remark, "one would think the earth is under a
curse, since of all her children these that cling to her the closest are
uncouth in body and as leaden of gait as if their very hearts were loaded
with chains. But here on this
same road you might have seen amongst these heavy men a being lithe,
supple, and long-limbed, straight like a pine with something striving
upwards in his appearance as though the heart within him had been buoyant.
Perhaps it was only the force of the contrast, but when he was
passing one of these villagers here, the soles of his feet did not seem to
me to touch the dust of the road. He
vaulted over the stiles, paced these slopes with a long elastic stride
that made him noticeable at a great distance, and had lustrous black eyes.
He was so different from the mankind around that, with his freedom
of movement, his soft--a little startled, glance, his olive complexion and
graceful bearing, his humanity suggested to me the nature of a woodland
creature. He came from
there." The
doctor pointed with his whip, and from the summit of the descent seen over
the rolling tops of the trees in a park by the side of the road, appeared
the level sea far below us, like the floor of an immense edifice inlaid
with bands of dark ripple, with still trails of glitter, ending in a belt
of glassy water at the foot of the sky.
The light blur of smoke, from an invisible steamer, faded on the
great clearness of the horizon like the mist of a breath on a mirror; and,
inshore, the white sails of a coaster, with the appearance of
disentangling themselves slowly from under the branches, floated clear of
the foliage of the trees. "Shipwrecked
in the bay?" I said. "Yes;
he was a castaway. A poor
emigrant from Central Europe bound to America and washed ashore here in a
storm. And for him, who knew
nothing of the earth, England was an undiscovered country.
It was some time before he learned its name; and for all I know he
might have expected to find wild beasts or wild men here, when, crawling
in the dark over the sea-wall, he rolled down the other side into a dyke,
where it was another miracle he didn't get drowned.
But he struggled instinctively like an animal under a net, and this
blind struggle threw him out into a field.
He must have been, indeed, of a tougher fibre than he looked to
withstand without expiring such buffetings, the violence of his exertions,
and so much fear. Later on,
in his broken English that resembled curiously the speech of a young
child, he told me himself that he put his trust in God, believing he was
no longer in this world. And
truly--he would add--how was he to know?
He fought his way against the rain and the gale on all fours, and
crawled at last among some sheep huddled close under the lee of a hedge.
They ran off in all directions, bleating in the darkness, and he
welcomed the first familiar sound he heard on these shores.
It must have been two in the morning then. And this is all we know of the manner of his landing, though
he did not arrive unattended by any means.
Only his grisly company did not begin to come ashore till much
later in the day. . . ." The
doctor gathered the reins, clicked his tongue; we trotted down the hill.
Then turning, almost directly, a sharp corner into the High Street,
we rattled over the stones and were home. Late
in the evening Kennedy, breaking a spell of moodiness that had come over
him, returned to the story. Smoking
his pipe, he paced the long room from end to end.
A reading-lamp concentrated all its light upon the papers on his
desk; and, sitting by the open window, I saw, after the windless,
scorching day, the frigid splendour of a hazy sea lying motionless under
the moon. Not a whisper, not
a splash, not a stir of the shingle, not a footstep, not a sigh came up
from the earth below--never a sign of life but the scent of climbing
jasmine; and Kennedy's voice, speaking behind me, passed through the wide
casement, to vanish outside in a chill and sumptuous stillness. ".
. . The relations of
shipwrecks in the olden time tell us of much suffering.
Often the castaways were only saved from drowning to die miserably
from starvation on a barren coast; others suffered violent death or else
slavery, passing through years of precarious existence with people to whom
their strangeness was an object of suspicion, dislike or fear.
We read about these things, and they are very pitiful.
It is indeed hard upon a man to find himself a lost stranger,
helpless, incomprehensible, and of a mysterious origin, in some obscure
corner of the earth. Yet
amongst all the adventurers shipwrecked in all the wild parts of the world
there is not one, it seems to me, that ever had to suffer a fate so simply
tragic as the man I am speaking of, the most innocent of adventurers cast
out by the sea in the bight of this bay, almost within sight from this
very window. "He
did not know the name of his ship. Indeed,
in the course of time we discovered he did not even know that ships had
names--'like Christian people'; and when, one day, from the top of the
Talfourd Hill, he beheld the sea lying open to his view, his eyes roamed
afar, lost in an air of wild surprise, as though he had never seen such a
sight before. And probably he had not.
As far as I could make out, he had been hustled together with many
others on board an emigrant-ship lying at the mouth of the Elbe, too
bewildered to take note of his surroundings, too weary to see anything,
too anxious to care. They
were driven below into the 'tweendeck and battened down from the very
start. It was a low timber
dwelling--he would say--with wooden beams overhead, like the houses in his
country, but you went into it down a ladder.
It was very large, very cold, damp and sombre, with places in the
manner of wooden boxes where people had to sleep, one above another, and
it kept on rocking all ways at once all the time.
He crept into one of these boxes and laid down there in the clothes
in which he had left his home many days before, keeping his bundle and his
stick by his side. People
groaned, children cried, water dripped, the lights went out, the walls of
the place creaked, and everything was being shaken so that in one's little
box one dared not lift one's head. He
had lost touch with his only companion (a young man from the same valley,
he said), and all the time a great noise of wind went on outside and heavy
blows fell-boom! boom! An
awful sickness overcame him, even to the point of making him neglect his
prayers. Besides, one could
not tell whether it was morning or evening.
It seemed always to be night in that place. "Before
that he had been travelling a long, long time on the iron track.
He looked out of the window, which had a wonderfully clear glass in
it, and the trees, the houses, the fields, and the long roads seemed to
fly round and round about him till his head swam.
He gave me to understand that he had on his passage beheld
uncounted multitudes of people--whole nations--all dressed in such clothes
as the rich wear. Once he was
made to get out of the carriage, and slept through a night on a bench in a
house of bricks with his bundle under his head; and once for many hours he
had to sit on a floor of flat stones dozing, with his knees up and with
his bundle between his feet. There
was a roof over him, which seemed made of glass, and was so high that the
tallest mountain-pine he had ever seen would have had room to grow under
it. Steam-machines rolled in
at one end and out at the other. People
swarmed more than you can see on a feast-day round the miraculous Holy
Image in the yard of the Carmelite Convent down in the plains where,
before he left his home, he drove his mother in a wooden cart--a pious old
woman who wanted to offer prayers and make a vow for his safety.
He could not give me an idea of how large and lofty and full of
noise and smoke and gloom, and clang of iron, the place was, but some one
had told him it was called Berlin. Then
they rang a bell, and another steam-machine came in, and again he was
taken on and on through a land that wearied his eyes by its flatness
without a single bit of a hill to be seen anywhere.
One more night he spent shut up in a building like a good stable
with a litter of straw on the floor, guarding his bundle amongst a lot of
men, of whom not one could understand a single word he said.
In the morning they were all led down to the stony shores of an
extremely broad muddy river, flowing not between hills but between houses
that seemed immense. There
was a steammachine that went on the water, and they all stood upon it
packed tight, only now there were with them many women and children who
made much noise. A cold rain
fell, the wind blew in his face; he was wet through, and his teeth
chattered. He and the young
man from the same valley took each other by the hand. "They
thought they were being taken to America straight away, but suddenly the
steam-machine bumped against the side of a thing like a house on the
water. The walls were smooth
and black, and there uprose, growing from the roof as it were, bare trees
in the shape of crosses, extremely high. That's how it appeared to him
then, for he had never seen a ship before.
This was the ship that was going to swim all the way to America.
Voices shouted, everything swayed; there was a ladder dipping up
and down. He went up on his
hands and knees in mortal fear of falling into the water below, which made
a great splashing. He got
separated from his companion, and when he descended into the bottom of
that ship his heart seemed to melt suddenly within him. "It
was then also, as he told me, that he lost contact for good and all with
one of those three men who the summer before had been going about through
all the little towns in the foothills of his country.
They would arrive on market days driving in a peasant's cart, and
would set up an office in an inn or some other Jew's house. There were three of them, of whom one with a long beard
looked venerable; and they had red cloth collars round their necks and
gold lace on their sleeves like Government officials.
They sat proudly behind a long table; and in the next room, so that
the common people shouldn't hear, they kept a cunning telegraph machine,
through which they could talk to the Emperor of America. The fathers hung about the door, but the young men of the
mountains would crowd up to the table asking many questions, for there was
work to be got all the year round at three dollars a day in America, and
no military service to do. "But
the American Kaiser would not take everybody.
Oh, no! He himself had
a great difficulty in getting accepted, and the venerable man in uniform
had to go out of the room several times to work the telegraph on his
behalf. The American Kaiser
engaged him at last at three dollars, he being young and strong.
However, many able young men backed out, afraid of the great
distance; besides, those only who had some money could be taken.
There were some who sold their huts and their land because it cost
a lot of money to get to America; but then, once there, you had three
dollars a day, and if you were clever you could find places where true
gold could be picked up on the ground.
His father's house was getting over full.
Two of his brothers were married and had children.
He promised to send money home from America by post twice a year.
His father sold an old cow, a pair of piebald mountain ponies of
his own raising, and a cleared plot of fair pasture land on the sunny
slope of a pine-clad pass to a Jew inn-keeper in order to pay the people
of the ship that took men to America to get rich in a short time. "He
must have been a real adventurer at heart, for how many of the greatest
enterprises in the conquest of the earth had for their beginning just such
a bargaining away of the paternal cow for the mirage or true gold far
away! I have been telling you
more or less in my own words what I learned fragmentarily in the course of
two or three years, during which I seldom missed an opportunity of a
friendly chat with him. He
told me this story of his adventure with many flashes of white teeth and
lively glances of black eyes, at first in a sort of anxious baby-talk,
then, as he acquired the language, with great fluency, but always with
that singing, soft, and at the same time vibrating intonation that
instilled a strangely penetrating power into the sound of the most
familiar English words, as if they had been the words of an unearthly
language. And he always would come to an end, with many emphatic shakes of
his head, upon that awful sensation of his heart melting within him
directly he set foot on board that ship.
Afterwards there seemed to come for him a period of blank
ignorance, at any rate as to facts. No
doubt he must have been abominably sea-sick and abominably unhappy --this
soft and passionate adventurer, taken thus out of his knowledge, and
feeling bitterly as he lay in his emigrant bunk his utter loneliness; for
his was a highly sensitive nature. The
next thing we know of him for certain is that he had been hiding in
Hammond's pig-pound by the side of the road to Norton six miles, as the
crow flies, from the sea. Of these experiences he was unwilling to speak:
they seemed to have seared into his soul a sombre sort of wonder and
indignation. Through the
rumours of the country-side, which lasted for a good many days after his
arrival, we know that the fishermen of West Colebrook had been disturbed
and startled by heavy knocks against the walls of weatherboard cottages,
and by a voice crying piercingly strange words in the night.
Several of them turned out even, but, no doubt, he had fled in
sudden alarm at their rough angry tones hailing each other in the
darkness. A sort of frenzy must have helped him up the steep Norton
hill. It was he, no doubt,
who early the following morning had been seen lying (in a swoon, I should
say) on the roadside grass by the Brenzett carrier, who actually got down
to have a nearer look, but drew back, intimidated by the perfect
immobility, and by something queer in the aspect of that tramp, sleeping
so still under the showers. As
the day advanced, some children came dashing into school at Norton in such
a fright that the schoolmistress went out and spoke indignantly to a
'horrid-looking man' on the road. He
edged away, hanging his head, for a few steps, and then suddenly ran off
with extraordinary fleetness. The
driver of Mr. Bradley's milk-cart made no secret of it that he had lashed
with his whip at a hairy sort of gipsy fellow who, jumping up at a turn of
the road by the Vents, made a snatch at the pony's bridle.
And he caught him a good one too, right over the face, he said,
that made him drop down in the mud a jolly sight quicker than he had
jumped up; but it was a good half-a-mile before he could stop the pony.
Maybe that in his desperate endeavours to get help, and in his need
to get in touch with some one, the poor devil had tried to stop the cart.
Also three boys confessed afterwards to throwing stones at a funny
tramp, knocking about all wet and muddy, and, it seemed, very drunk, in
the narrow deep lane by the limekilns.
All this was the talk of three villages for days; but we have Mrs.
Finn's (the wife of Smith's waggoner) unimpeachable testimony that she saw
him get over the low wall of Hammond's pig-pound and lurch straight at
her, babbling aloud in a voice that was enough to make one die of fright. Having the baby with her in a perambulator, Mrs. Finn called
out to him to go away, and as he persisted in coming nearer, she hit him
courageously with her umbrella over the head and, without once looking
back, ran like the wind with the perambulator as far as the first house in
the village. She stopped
then, out of breath, and spoke to old Lewis, hammering there at a heap of
stones; and the old chap, taking off his immense black wire goggles, got
up on his shaky legs to look where she pointed.
Together they followed with their eyes the figure of the man
running over a field; they saw him fall down, pick himself up, and run on
again, staggering and waving his long arms above his head, in the
direction of the New Barns Farm. From
that moment he is plainly in the toils of his obscure and touching
destiny. There is no doubt after this of what happened to him.
All is certain now: Mrs. Smith's intense terror; Amy Foster's
stolid conviction held against the other's nervous attack, that the man
'meant no harm'; Smith's exasperation (on his return from Darnford Market)
at finding the dog barking himself into a fit, the back-door locked, his
wife in hysterics; and all for an unfortunate dirty tramp, supposed to be
even then lurking in his stackyard. Was he?
He would teach him to frighten women. "Smith
is notoriously hot-tempered, but the sight of some nondescript and miry
creature sitting crosslegged amongst a lot of loose straw, and swinging
itself to and fro like a bear in a cage, made him pause. Then this tramp stood up silently before him, one mass of mud
and filth from head to foot. Smith,
alone amongst his stacks with this apparition, in the stormy twilight
ringing with the infuriated barking of the dog, felt the dread of an
inexplicable strangeness. But
when that being, parting with his black hands the long matted locks that
hung before his face, as you part the two halves of a curtain, looked out
at him with glistening, wild, black-and-white eyes, the weirdness of this
silent encounter fairly staggered him.
He had admitted since (for the story has been a legitimate subject
of conversation about here for years) that he made more than one step
backwards. Then a sudden
burst of rapid, senseless speech persuaded him at once that he had to do
with an escaped lunatic. In
fact, that impression never wore off completely.
Smith has not in his heart given up his secret conviction of the
man's essential insanity to this very day. "As
the creature approached him, jabbering in a most discomposing manner,
Smith (unaware that he was being addressed as 'gracious lord,' and adjured
in God's name to afford food and shelter) kept on speaking firmly but
gently to it, and retreating all the time into the other yard.
At last, watching his chance, by a sudden charge he bundled him
headlong into the wood-lodge, and instantly shot the bolt. Thereupon he wiped his brow, though the day was cold.
He had done his duty to the community by shutting up a wandering
and probably dangerous maniac. Smith
isn't a hard man at all, but he had room in his brain only for that one
idea of lunacy. He was not imaginative enough to ask himself whether the man
might not be perishing with cold and hunger.
Meantime, at first, the maniac made a great deal of noise in the
lodge. Mrs. Smith was
screaming upstairs, where she had locked herself in her bedroom; but Amy
Foster sobbed piteously at the kitchen door, wringing her hands and
muttering, 'Don't! don't!' I
daresay Smith had a rough time of it that evening with one noise and
another, and this insane, disturbing voice crying obstinately through the
door only added to his irritation. He
couldn't possibly have connected this troublesome lunatic with the sinking
of a ship in Eastbay, of which there had been a rumour in the Darnford
marketplace. And I daresay
the man inside had been very near to insanity on that night.
Before his excitement collapsed and he became unconscious he was
throwing himself violently about in the dark, rolling on some dirty sacks,
and biting his fists with rage, cold, hunger, amazement, and despair. "He
was a mountaineer of the eastern range of the Carpathians, and the vessel
sunk the night before in Eastbay was the Hamburg emigrant-ship Herzogin
Sophia-Dorothea, of appalling memory. "A
few months later we could read in the papers the accounts of the bogus
'Emigration Agencies' among the Sclavonian peasantry in the more remote
provinces of Austria. The
object of these scoundrels was to get hold of the poor ignorant people's
homesteads, and they were in league with the local usurers.
They exported their victims through Hamburg mostly.
As to the ship, I had watched her out of this very window, reaching
close-hauled under short canvas into the bay on a dark, threatening
afternoon. She came to an
anchor, correctly by the chart, off the Brenzett Coastguard station.
I remember before the night fell looking out again at the outlines
of her spars and rigging that stood out dark and pointed on a background
of ragged, slaty clouds like another and a slighter spire to the left of
the Brenzett churchtower. In
the evening the wind rose. At
midnight I could hear in my bed the terrific gusts and the sounds of a
driving deluge. "About
that time the Coastguardmen thought they saw the lights of a steamer over
the anchoringground. In a
moment they vanished; but it is clear that another vessel of some sort had
tried for shelter in the bay on that awful, blind night, had rammed the
German ship amidships (a breach-as one of the divers told me
afterwards--'that you could sail a Thames barge through'), and then had
gone out either scathless or damaged, who shall say; but had gone out,
unknown, unseen, and fatal, to perish mysteriously at sea.
Of her nothing ever came to light, and yet the hue and cry that was
raised all over the world would have found her out if she had been in
existence anywhere on the face of the waters. "A
completeness without a clue, and a stealthy silence as of a neatly
executed crime, characterise this murderous disaster, which, as you may
remember, had its gruesome celebrity.
The wind would have prevented the loudest outcries from reaching
the shore; there had been evidently no time for signals of distress.
It was death without any sort of fuss.
The Hamburg ship, filling all at once, capsized as she sank, and at
daylight there was not even the end of a spar to be seen above water.
She was missed, of course, and at first the Coastguardmen surmised
that she had either dragged her anchor or parted her cable some time
during the night, and had been blown out to sea.
Then, after the tide turned, the wreck must have shifted a little
and released some of the bodies, because a child --a little fair-haired
child in a red frock-came ashore abreast of the Martello tower.
By the afternoon you could see along three miles of beach dark
figures with bare legs dashing in and out of the tumbling foam, and
rough-looking men, women with hard faces, children, mostly fair-haired,
were being carried, stiff and dripping, on stretchers, on wattles, on
ladders, in a long procession past the door of the 'Ship Inn,' to be laid
out in a row under the north wall of the Brenzett Church. "Officially,
the body of the little girl in the red frock is the first thing that came
ashore from that ship. But I
have patients amongst the seafaring population of West Colebrook, and,
unofficially, I am informed that very early that morning two brothers, who
went down to look after their cobble hauled up on the beach, found, a good
way from Brenzett, an ordinary ship's hencoop lying high and dry on the
shore, with eleven drowned ducks inside.
Their families ate the birds, and the hencoop was split into
firewood with a hatchet. It
is possible that a man (supposing he happened to be on deck at the time of
the accident) might have floated ashore on that hencoop.
He might. I admit it
is improbable, but there was the man--and for days, nay, for weeks--it
didn't enter our heads that we had amongst us the only living soul that
had escaped from that disaster. The
man himself, even when he learned to speak intelligibly, could tell us
very little. He remembered he
had felt better (after the ship had anchored, I suppose), and that the
darkness, the wind, and the rain took his breath away.
This looks as if he had been on deck some time during that night.
But we mustn't forget he had been taken out of his knowledge, that
he had been sea-sick and battened down below for four days, that he had no
general notion of a ship or of the sea, and therefore could have no
definite idea of what was happening to him.
The rain, the wind, the darkness he knew; he understood the
bleating of the sheep, and he remembered the pain of his wretchedness and
misery, his heartbroken astonishment that it was neither seen nor
understood, his dismay at finding all the men angry and all the women
fierce. He had approached
them as a beggar, it is true, he said; but in his country, even if they
gave nothing, they spoke gently to beggars. The children in his country
were not taught to throw stones at those who asked for compassion. Smith's
strategy overcame him completely. The
wood-lodge presented the horrible aspect of a dungeon.
What would be done to him next? . . . No wonder that Amy Foster
appeared to his eyes with the aureole of an angel of light. The girl had not been able to sleep for thinking of the poor
man, and in the morning, before the Smiths were up, she slipped out across
the back yard. Holding the
door of the wood-lodge ajar, she looked in and extended to him half a loaf
of white bread--'such bread as the rich eat in my country,' he used to
say. "At
this he got up slowly from amongst all sorts of rubbish, stiff, hungry,
trembling, miserable, and doubtful. 'Can
you eat this?' she asked in her soft and timid voice.
He must have taken her for a 'gracious lady.'
He devoured ferociously, and tears were falling on the crust.
Suddenly he dropped the bread, seized her wrist, and imprinted a
kiss on her hand. She was not
frightened. Through his
forlorn condition she had observed that he was good-looking.
She shut the door and walked back slowly to the kitchen. Much later
on, she told Mrs. Smith, who shuddered at the bare idea of being touched
by that creature. "Through
this act of impulsive pity he was brought back again within the pale of
human relations with his new surroundings.
He never forgot it--never. "That
very same morning old Mr. Swaffer (Smith's nearest neighbour) came over to
give his advice, and ended by carrying him off.
He stood, unsteady on his legs, meek, and caked over in halfdried
mud, while the two men talked around him in an incomprehensible tongue.
Mrs. Smith had refused to come downstairs till the madman was off
the premises; Amy Foster, far from within the dark kitchen, watched
through the open back door; and he obeyed the signs that were made to him
to the best of his ability. But
Smith was full of mistrust. 'Mind, sir!
It may be all his cunning,' he cried repeatedly in a tone of
warning. When Mr. Swaffer
started the mare, the deplorable being sitting humbly by his side, through
weakness, nearly fell out over the back of the high two-wheeled cart.
Swaffer took him straight home. And
it is then that I come upon the scene. "I
was called in by the simple process of the old man beckoning to me with
his forefinger over the gate of his house as I happened to be driving
past. I got down, of course. "'I've
got something here,' he mumbled, leading the way to an outhouse at a
little distance from his other farm-buildings. "It
was there that I saw him first, in a long low room taken upon the space of
that sort of coachhouse. It
was bare and whitewashed, with a small square aperture glazed with one
cracked, dusty pane at its further end.
He was lying on his back upon a straw pallet; they had given him a
couple of horse-blankets, and he seemed to have spent the remainder of his
strength in the exertion of cleaning himself.
He was almost speechless; his quick breathing under the blankets
pulled up to his chin, his glittering, restless black eyes reminded me of
a wild bird caught in a snare. While
I was examining him, old Swaffer stood silently by the door, passing the
tips of his fingers along his shaven upper lip. I gave some directions,
promised to send a bottle of medicine, and naturally made some inquiries. "'Smith
caught him in the stackyard at New Barns,' said the old chap in his
deliberate, unmoved manner, and as if the other had been indeed a sort of
wild animal. 'That's how I
came by him. Quite a curiosity, isn't he?
Now tell me, doctor-you've been all over the world--don't you think
that's a bit of a Hindoo we've got hold of here.' "I
was greatly surprised. His
long black hair scattered over the straw bolster contrasted with the olive
pallor of his face. It
occurred to me he might be a Basque.
It didn't necessarily follow that he should understand Spanish; but
I tried him with the few words I know, and also with some French. The
whispered sounds I caught by bending my ear to his lips puzzled me
utterly. That afternoon the
young ladies from the Rectory (one of them read Goethe with a dictionary,
and the other had struggled with Dante for years), coming to see Miss
Swaffer, tried their German and Italian on him from the doorway. They retreated, just the least bit scared by the flood of
passionate speech which, turning on his pallet, he let out at them.
They admitted that the sound was pleasant, soft, musical-but, in
conjunction with his looks perhaps, it was startling--so excitable, so
utterly unlike anything one had ever heard.
The village boys climbed up the bank to have a peep through the
little square aperture. Everybody
was wondering what Mr. Swaffer would do with him. "He
simply kept him. "Swaffer
would be called eccentric were he not so much respected.
They will tell you that Mr. Swaffer sits up as late as ten o'clock
at night to read books, and they will tell you also that he can write a
cheque for two hundred pounds without thinking twice about it.
He himself would tell you that the Swaffers had owned land between
this and Darnford for these three hundred years. He must be eighty-five
to-day, but he does not look a bit older than when I first came here.
He is a great breeder of sheep, and deals extensively in cattle.
He attends market days for miles around in every sort of weather,
and drives sitting bowed low over the reins, his lank grey hair curling
over the collar of his warm coat, and with a green plaid rug round his
legs. The calmness of
advanced age gives a solemnity to his manner.
He is cleanshaved; his lips are thin and sensitive; something rigid
and monarchal in the set of his features lends a certain elevation to the
character of his face. He has
been known to drive miles in the rain to see a new kind of rose in
somebody's garden, or a monstrous cabbage grown by a cottager.
He loves to hear tell of or to be shown something that he calls
'outlandish.' Perhaps it was just that outlandishness of the man which
influenced old Swaffer. Perhaps
it was only an inexplicable caprice.
All I know is that at the end of three weeks I caught sight of
Smith's lunatic digging in Swaffer's kitchen garden.
They had found out he could use a spade.
He dug barefooted. "His
black hair flowed over his shoulders.
I suppose it was Swaffer who had given him the striped old cotton
shirt; but he wore still the national brown cloth trousers (in which he
had been washed ashore) fitting to the leg almost like tights; was belted
with a broad leathern belt studded with little brass discs; and had never
yet ventured into the village. The
land he looked upon seemed to him kept neatly, like the grounds round a
landowner's house; the size of the cart-horses struck him with
astonishment; the roads resembled garden walks, and the aspect of the
people, especially on Sundays, spoke of opulence.
He wondered what made them so hardhearted and their children so
bold. He got his food at the
back door, carried it in both hands carefully to his outhouse, and,
sitting alone on his pallet, would make the sign of the cross before he
began. Beside the same
pallet, kneeling in the early darkness of the short days, he recited aloud
the Lord's Prayer before he slept. Whenever he saw old Swaffer he would
bow with veneration from the waist, and stand erect while the old man,
with his fingers over his upper lip, surveyed him silently.
He bowed also to Miss Swaffer, who kept house frugally for her
father--a broadshouldered, big-boned woman of forty-five, with the pocket
of her dress full of keys, and a grey, steady eye.
She was Church--as people said (while her father was one of the
trustees of the Baptist Chapel)--and wore a little steel cross at her
waist. She dressed severely in black, in memory of one of the
innumerable Bradleys of the neighbourhood, to whom she had been engaged
some twenty-five years ago--a young farmer who broke his neck out hunting
on the eve of the wedding day. She
had the unmoved countenance of the deaf, spoke very seldom, and her lips,
thin like her father's, astonished one sometimes by a mysteriously ironic
curl. "These
were the people to whom he owed allegiance, and an overwhelming loneliness
seemed to fall from the leaden sky of that winter without sunshine.
All the faces were sad. He
could talk to no one, and had no hope of ever understanding anybody.
It was as if these had been the faces of people from the other
world--dead people--he used to tell me years afterwards.
Upon my word, I wonder he did not go mad.
He didn't know where he was. Somewhere
very far from his mountains--somewhere over the water.
Was this America, he wondered? "If
it hadn't been for the steel cross at Miss Swaffer's belt he would not, he
confessed, have known whether he was in a Christian country at all.
He used to cast stealthy glances at it, and feel comforted.
There was nothing here the same as in his country!
The earth and the water were different; there were no images of the
Redeemer by the roadside. The
very grass was different, and the trees.
All the trees but the three old Norway pines on the bit of lawn
before Swaffer's house, and these reminded him of his country.
He had been detected once, after dusk, with his forehead against
the trunk of one of them, sobbing, and talking to himself.
They had been like brothers to him at that time, he affirmed.
Everything else was strange. Conceive you the kind of an existence
overshadowed, oppressed, by the everyday material appearances, as if by
the visions of a nightmare. At
night, when he could not sleep, he kept on thinking of the girl who gave
him the first piece of bread he had eaten in this foreign land. She had been neither fierce nor angry, nor frightened.
Her face he remembered as the only comprehensible face amongst all
these faces that were as closed, as mysterious, and as mute as the faces
of the dead who are possessed of a knowledge beyond the comprehension of
the living. I wonder whether
the memory of her compassion prevented him from cutting his throat.
But there! I suppose I
am an old sentimentalist, and forget the instinctive love of life which it
takes all the strength of an uncommon despair to overcome. "He
did the work which was given him with an intelligence which surprised old
Swaffer. By-andby it was
discovered that he could help at the ploughing, could milk the cows, feed
the bullocks in the cattle-yard, and was of some use with the sheep. He began to pick up words, too, very fast; and suddenly, one
fine morning in spring, he rescued from an untimely death a grand-child of
old Swaffer. "Swaffer's
younger daughter is married to Willcox, a solicitor and the Town Clerk of
Colebrook. Regularly twice a
year they come to stay with the old man for a few days.
Their only child, a little girl not three years old at the time,
ran out of the house alone in her little white pinafore, and, toddling
across the grass of a terraced garden, pitched herself over a low wall
head first into the horsepond in the yard below. "Our
man was out with the waggoner and the plough in the field nearest to the
house, and as he was leading the team round to begin a fresh furrow, he
saw, through the gap of the gate, what for anybody else would have been a
mere flutter of something white. But
he had straight-glancing, quick, far-reaching eyes, that only seemed to
flinch and lose their amazing power before the immensity of the sea.
He was barefooted, and looking as outlandish as the heart of
Swaffer could desire. Leaving
the horses on the turn, to the inexpressible disust of the waggoner he
bounded off, going over the ploughed ground in long leaps, and suddenly
appeared before the mother, thrust the child into her arms, and strode
away. "The
pond was not very deep; but still, if he had not had such good eyes, the
child would have perished--miserably suffocated in the foot or so of
sticky mud at the bottom. Old
Swaffer walked out slowly into the field, waited till the plough came over
to his side, had a good look at him, and without saying a word went back
to the house. But from that
time they laid out his meals on the kitchen table; and at first, Miss
Swaffer, all in black and with an inscrutable face, would come and stand
in the doorway of the living-room to see him make a big sign of the cross
before he fell to. I believe that from that day, too, Swaffer began to pay him
regular wages. "I
can't follow step by step his development. He cut his hair short, was seen
in the village and along the road going to and fro to his work like any
other man. Children ceased to
shout after him. He became aware of social differences, but remained for a
long time surprised at the bare poverty of the churches among so much
wealth. He couldn't
understand either why they were kept shut up on week days.
There was nothing to steal in them.
Was it to keep people from praying too often?
The rectory took much notice of him about that time, and I believe
the young ladies attempted to prepare the ground for his conversion. They could not, however, break him of his habit of crossing
himself, but he went so far as to take off the string with a couple of
brass medals the size of a sixpence, a tiny metal cross, and a square sort
of scapulary which he wore round his neck.
He hung them on the wall by the side of his bed, and he was still
to be heard every evening reciting the Lord's Prayer, in incomprehensible
words and in a slow, fervent tone, as he had heard his old father do at
the head of all the kneeling family, big and little, on every evening of
his life. And though he wore
corduroys at work, and a slop-made pepper-andsalt suit on Sundays,
strangers would turn round to look after him on the road.
His foreignness had a peculiar and indelible stamp.
At last people became used to see him.
But they never became used to him.
His rapid, skimming walk; his swarthy complexion; his hat cocked on
the left ear; his habit, on warm evenings, of wearing his coat over one
shoulder, like a hussar's dolman; his manner of leaping over the stiles,
not as a feat of agility, but in the ordinary course of progression--all
these peculiarities were, as one may say, so many causes of scorn and
offence to the inhabitants of the village.
They wouldn't in their dinner hour lie flat on their backs
on the grass to stare at the sky. Neither did they go about the fields
screaming dismal tunes. Many
times have I heard his highpitched voice from behind the ridge of some
sloping sheep-walk, a voice light and soaring, like a lark's, but with a
melancholy human note, over our fields that hear only the song of birds.
And I should be startled myself.
Ah! He was different:
innocent of heart, and full of good will, which nobody wanted, this
castaway, that, like a man transplanted into another planet, was separated
by an immense space from his past and by an immense ignorance from his
future. His quick, fervent
utterance positively shocked everybody.
'An excitable devil,' they called him.
One evening, in the tap-room of the Coach and Horses (having drunk
some whisky), he upset them all by singing a love song of his country. They hooted him down, and he was pained; but Preble, the lame
wheelwright, and Vincent, the fat blacksmith, and the other notables too,
wanted to drink their evening beer in peace.
On another occasion he tried to show them how to dance.
The dust rose in clouds from the sanded floor; he leaped straight
up amongst the deal tables, struck his heels together, squatted on one
heel in front of old Preble, shooting out the other leg, uttered wild and
exulting cries, jumped up to whirl on one foot, snapping his fingers above
his head--and a strange carter who was having a drink in there began to
swear, and cleared out with his half-pint in his hand into the bar.
But when suddenly he sprang upon a table and continued to dance
among the glasses, the landlord interfered. He didn't want any 'acrobat
tricks in the taproom.' They laid their hands on him.
Having had a glass or two, Mr. Swaffer's foreigner tried to
expostulate: was ejected forcibly: got a black eye. "I
believe he felt the hostility of his human surroundings.
But he was tough--tough in spirit, too, as well as in body.
Only the memory of the sea frightened him, with that vague terror
that is left by a bad dream. His
home was far away; and he did not want now to go to America.
I had often explained to him that there is no place on earth where
true gold can be found lying ready and to be got for the trouble of the
picking up. How then, he asked, could he ever return home with empty
hands when there had been sold a cow, two ponies, and a bit of land to pay
for his going? His eyes would
fill with tears, and, averting them from the immense shimmer of the sea,
he would throw himself face down on the grass.
But sometimes, cocking his hat with a little conquering air, he
would defy my wisdom. He had
found his bit of true gold. That
was Amy Foster's heart; which was 'a golden heart, and soft to people's
misery,' he would say in the accents of overwhelming conviction. "He
was called Yanko. He had
explained that this meant little John; but as he would also repeat very
often that he was a mountaineer (some word sounding in the dialect of his
country like Goorall) he got it for his surname.
And this is the only trace of him that the succeeding ages may find
in the marriage register of the parish.
There it stands--Yanko Goorall--in the rector's handwriting.
The crooked cross made by the castaway, a cross whose tracing no
doubt seemed to him the most solemn part of the whole ceremony, is all
that remains now to perpetuate the memory of his name. "His
courtship had lasted some time--ever since he got his precarious footing
in the community. It began by
his buying for Amy Foster a green satin ribbon in Darnford.
This was what you did in his country.
You bought a ribbon at a Jew's stall on a fair-day.
I don't suppose the girl knew what to do with it, but he seemed to
think that his honourable intentions could not be mistaken. "It
was only when he declared his purpose to get married that I fully
understood how, for a hundred futile and inappreciable reasons, how--shall
I say odious?--he was to all the countryside. Every old woman in the
village was up in arms. Smith, coming upon him near the farm, promised to
break his head for him if he found him about again.
But he twisted his little black moustache with such a bellicose air
and rolled such big, black fierce eyes at Smith that this promise came to
nothing. Smith, however, told
the girl that she must be mad to take up with a man who was surely wrong
in his head. All the same,
when she heard him in the gloaming whistle from beyond the orchard a
couple of bars of a weird and mournful tune, she would drop whatever she
had in her hand--she would leave Mrs. Smith in the middle of a sentence
--and she would run out to his call.
Mrs. Smith called her a shameless hussy.
She answered nothing. She
said nothing at all to anybody, and went on her way as if she had been
deaf. She and I alone all in
the land, I fancy, could see his very real beauty.
He was very good-looking, and most graceful in his bearing, with
that something wild as of a woodland creature in his aspect.
Her mother moaned over her dismally whenever the girl came to see
her on her day out. The
father was surly, but pretended not to know; and Mrs. Finn once told her
plainly that 'this man, my dear, will do you some harm some day yet.'
And so it went on. They could be seen on the roads, she tramping
stolidly in her finery--grey dress, black feather, stout boots, prominent
white cotton gloves that caught your eye a hundred yards away; and he, his
coat slung picturesquely over one shoulder, pacing by her side, gallant of
bearing and casting tender glances upon the girl with the golden heart.
I wonder whether he saw how plain she was.
Perhaps among types so different from what he had ever seen, he had
not the power to judge; or perhaps he was seduced by the divine quality of
her pity. "Yanko
was in great trouble meantime. In
his country you get an old man for an ambassador in marriage affairs.
He did not know how to proceed.
However, one day in the midst of sheep in a field (he was now
Swaffer's under-shepherd with Foster) he took off his hat to the father
and declared himself humbly. 'I
daresay she's fool enough to marry you,' was all Foster said.
'And then,' he used to relate, 'he puts his hat on his head, looks
black at me as if he wanted to cut my throat, whistles the dog, and off he
goes, leaving me to do the work.' The Fosters, of course, didn't like to lose the wages the
girl earned: Amy used to give all her money to her mother. But there was in Foster a very genuine aversion to that
match. He contended that the
fellow was very good with sheep, but was not fit for any girl to marry.
For one thing, he used to go along the hedges muttering to himself
like a dam' fool; and then, these foreigners behave very queerly to women
sometimes. And perhaps he
would want to carry her off somewhere --or run off himself.
It was not safe. He preached it to his daughter that the fellow might ill-use
her in some way. She made no
answer. It was, they said in
the village, as if the man had done something to her.
People discussed the matter. It
was quite an excitement, and the two went on 'walking out' together in the
face of opposition. Then something unexpected happened. "I
don't know whether old Swaffer ever understood how much he was regarded in
the light of a father by his foreign retainer.
Anyway the relation was curiously feudal. So when Yanko asked formally for an interview--'and the Miss
too' (he called the severe, deaf Miss Swaffer simply Miss) --it was
to obtain their permission to marry. Swaffer heard him unmoved, dismissed
him by a nod, and then shouted the intelligence into Miss Swaffer's best
ear. She showed no surprise,
and only remarked grimly, in a veiled blank voice, 'He certainly won't get
any other girl to marry him.' "It
is Miss Swaffer who has all the credit of the munificence: but in a very
few days it came out that Mr. Swaffer had presented Yanko with a cottage
(the cottage you've seen this morning) and something like an acre of
ground--had made it over to him in absolute property.
Willcox expedited the deed, and I remember him telling me he had a
great pleasure in making it ready. It
recited: 'In consideration of saving the life of my beloved grandchild,
Bertha Willcox.' "Of
course, after that no power on earth could prevent them from getting
married. "Her
infatuation endured. People
saw her going out to meet him in the evening.
She stared with unblinking, fascinated eyes up the road where he
was expected to appear, walking freely, with a swing from the hip, and
humming one of the lovetunes of his country.
When the boy was born, he got elevated at the 'Coach and Horses,'
essayed again a song and a dance, and was again ejected. People expressed
their commiseration for a woman married to that Jack-in-the-box.
He didn't care. There was a man now (he told me boastfully) to whom
he could sing and talk in the language of his country, and show how to
dance by-and-by. "But
I don't know. To me he
appeared to have grown less springy of step, heavier in body, less keen of
eye. Imagination, no doubt;
but it seems to me now as if the net of fate had been drawn closer round
him already. "One
day I met him on the footpath over the Talfourd Hill. He told me that 'women were funny.' I had heard already of domestic differences. People were
saying that Amy Foster was beginning to find out what sort of man she had
married. He looked upon the sea with indifferent, unseeing eyes. His wife had snatched the child out of his arms one day as he
sat on the doorstep crooning to it a song such as the mothers sing to
babies in his mountains. She
seemed to think he was doing it some harm.
Women are funny. And
she had objected to him praying aloud in the evening.
Why? He expected the boy to repeat the prayer aloud after him
by-and-by, as he used to do after his old father when he was a child--in
his own country. And I discovered he longed for their boy to grow up so
that he could have a man to talk with in that language that to our ears
sounded so disturbing, so passionate, and so bizarre.
Why his wife should dislike the idea he couldn't tell.
But that would pass, he said.
And tilting his head knowingly, he tapped his breastbone to
indicate that she had a good heart: not hard, not fierce, open to
compassion, charitable to the poor! "I
walked away thoughtfully; I wondered whether his difference, his
strangeness, were not penetrating with repulsion that dull nature they had
begun by irresistibly attracting. I
wondered. . . ." The
Doctor came to the window and looked out at the frigid splendour of the
sea, immense in the haze, as if enclosing all the earth with all the
hearts lost among the passions of love and fear. "Physiologically,
now," he said, turning away abruptly, "it was possible.
It was possible." He
remained silent. Then went
on-- "At
all events, the next time I saw him he was ill--lung trouble.
He was tough, but I daresay he was not acclimatised as well as I
had supposed. It was a bad
winter; and, of course, these mountaineers do get fits of home sickness;
and a state of depression would make him vulnerable.
He was lying half dressed on a couch downstairs. "A
table covered with a dark oilcloth took up all the middle of the little
room. There was a wicker
cradle on the floor, a kettle spouting steam on the hob, and some child's
linen lay drying on the fender. The
room was warm, but the door opens right into the garden, as you noticed
perhaps. "He
was very feverish, and kept on muttering to himself. She sat on a chair and looked at him fixedly across the table
with her brown, blurred eyes. 'Why
don't you have him upstairs?' I asked.
With a start and a confused stammer she said, 'Oh! ah! I couldn't
sit with him upstairs, Sir.' "I
gave her certain directions; and going outside, I said again that he ought
to be in bed upstairs. She
wrung her hands. 'I couldn't.
I couldn't. He keeps
on saying something--I don't know what.'
With the memory of all the talk against the man that had been
dinned into her ears, I looked at her narrowly.
I looked into her shortsighted eyes, at her dumb eyes that once in
her life had seen an enticing shape, but seemed, staring at me, to see
nothing at all now. But I saw
she was uneasy. "'What's
the matter with him?' she asked in a sort of vacant trepidation.
'He doesn't look very ill. I
never did see anybody look like this before. . . .' "'Do
you think,' I asked indignantly, 'he is shamming?' "'I
can't help it, sir,' she said stolidly.
And suddenly she clapped her hands and looked right and left.
'And there's the baby. I
am so frightened. He wanted
me just now to give him the baby. I
can't understand what he says to it.' "'Can't
you ask a neighbour to come in tonight?' I asked. "'Please,
sir, nobody seems to care to come,' she muttered, dully resigned all at
once. "I
impressed upon her the necessity of the greatest care, and then had to go.
There was a good deal of sickness that winter.
'Oh, I hope he won't talk!' she exclaimed softly just as I was
going away. "I
don't know how it is I did not see--but I didn't. And yet, turning in my trap, I saw her lingering before the
door, very still, and as if meditating a flight up the miry road. "Towards
the night his fever increased. "He
tossed, moaned, and now and then muttered a complaint.
And she sat with the table between her and the couch, watching
every movement and every sound, with the terror, the unreasonable terror,
of that man she could not understand creeping over her.
She had drawn the wicker cradle close to her feet.
There was nothing in her now but the maternal instinct and that
unaccountable fear. "Suddenly
coming to himself, parched, he demanded a drink of water.
She did not move. She had not understood, though he may have thought he was
speaking in English. He
waited, looking at her, burning with fever, amazed at her silence and
immobility, and then he shouted impatiently, 'Water!
Give me water!' "She
jumped to her feet, snatched up the child, and stood still.
He spoke to her, and his passionate remonstrances only increased
her fear of that strange man. I
believe he spoke to her for a long time, entreating, wondering, pleading,
ordering, I suppose. She says she bore it as long as she could. And then a gust of
rage came over him. "He
sat up and called out terribly one word-some word. Then he got up as though he hadn't been ill at all, she says.
And as in fevered dismay, indignation, and wonder he tried to get
to her round the table, she simply opened the door and ran out with the
child in her arms. She heard
him call twice after her down the road in a terrible voice-and fled. . . .
Ah! but you should have seen stirring behind the dull, blurred
glance of these eyes the spectre of the fear which had hunted her on that
night three miles and a half to the door of Foster's cottage!
I did the next day. "And
it was I who found him lying face down and his body in a puddle, just
outside the little wicket-gate. "I
had been called out that night to an urgent case in the village, and on my
way home at daybreak passed by the cottage.
The door stood open. My man helped me to carry him in. We laid him on the couch.
The lamp smoked, the fire was out, the chill of the stormy night
oozed from the cheerless yellow paper on the wall.
'Amy!' I called aloud, and my voice seemed to lose itself in the
emptiness of this tiny house as if I had cried in a desert. He opened his eyes. 'Gone!'
he said distinctly. 'I had
only asked for water--only for a little water. . . .' "He
was muddy. I covered him up
and stood waiting in silence, catching a painfully gasped word now and
then. They were no longer in
his own language. The fever
had left him, taking with it the heat of life.
And with his panting breast and lustrous eyes he reminded me again
of a wild creature under the net; of a bird caught in a snare. She had left him. She
had left him--sick --helpless--thirsty.
The spear of the hunter had entered his very soul.
'Why?' he cried in the penetrating and indignant voice of a man
calling to a responsible Maker. A
gust of wind and a swish of rain answered. "And
as I turned away to shut the door he pronounced the word 'Merciful!' and
expired. "Eventually
I certified heart-failure as the immediate cause of death.
His heart must have indeed failed him, or else he might have stood
this night of storm and exposure, too.
I closed his eyes and drove away.
Not very far from the cottage I met Foster walking sturdily between
the dripping hedges with his collie at his heels. "'Do
you know where your daughter is?' I asked. "'Don't
I!' he cried. 'I am going to
talk to him a bit. Frightening
a poor woman like this.' "'He
won't frighten her any more,' I said. 'He is dead.' "He
struck with his stick at the mud. "'And
there's the child.' "Then,
after thinking deeply for a while-- "'I
don't know that it isn't for the best.' "That's
what he said. And she says
nothing at all now. Not a
word of him. Never.
Is his image as utterly gone from her mind as his lithe and
striding figure, his carolling voice are gone from our fields? He is no longer before her eyes to excite her imagination
into a passion of love or fear; and his memory seems to have vanished from
her dull brain as a shadow passes away upon a white screen. She lives in the cottage and works for Miss Swaffer.
She is Amy Foster for everybody, and the child is 'Amy Foster's
boy.' She calls him
Johnny--which means Little John. "It is impossible to say whether this name recalls anything to her. Does she ever think of the past? I have seen her hanging over the boy's cot in a very passion of maternal tenderness. The little fellow was lying on his back, a little frightened at me, but very still, with his big black eyes, with his fluttered air of a bird in a snare. And looking at him I seemed to see again the other one--the father, cast out mysteriously by the sea to perish in the supreme disaster of loneliness and despair." |